Close ur eyes.. get The Vision

What a Valentine... :)

2011-02-14T23:59:00.000-08:00

I saw her asleep quietly in bed, lying still like a baby in cradle, arched on her side with one hand extended towards me. Giving me the look that tempts me to hug her... and never leave. I wish to kiss her, hold her... but i can't wake her... I want to let her know how much i miss seeing her next to me...

So, i kept a rose next to her arm... and i could bet my life over how the touch of rose petals seemed so rough in comparison to her skin.

Still she slept sound like a calm sea of morning, and i wished i didn't had to wake her up...

But, it was already 4 am, BIG day today... After all, it was the valentine's day and the best moment to show what i felt for her...

I kissed her on the forehead and said, "Rise n shine honey,"... and whispered in her ear, "I have a surprise for you...", and kissed her again..

Slowly she opened her sweet little eyes, still adjusting to light around... and whispered.. "Again, you were up watching me asleep??"

I wished i could say NO, but we both knew, she already knows the answer... :)

She sprang up on the bed and yelled, "where is the surprise!!", surprising me with her sudden excitement...

Somehow, I convinced her to freshen up and meanwhile i went to make breakfast... scrambled eggs with English muffin...

She came out, still wrapped in towel with hair hanging loose, drenched in water or i must say... dipped in "I LOVE THE MOST" look...

Even when the sun wasn't up, i felt so rejuvenated with her glistening body and fresh smell while she came close and hugged me...

Finally, we both got ready, she had the breakfast and we stepped out of the house...

And, to her surprise, there stood a cab (i planned earlier) with roses on the backseat...

I said to driver, "Please take us to Bowling Green Park".

And here we go... Sitting with the most beautiful lady in the whole world, the shiniest, loveliest lady i have ever seen...

With whom i never felt any pain... no problem or worry seemed too big... my confidence, my inspiration... my success and my love...

I always felt so dependable when she kept her head on my shoulder.

Always reminded me... i have to take care of her... In her joy or sorrow... and how much more i needed her than she does...

While, i was lost in her day-dreams... the cab came to a halt and i realized we had already reached Bowling Green Park... amazing it was... so many people jogging so early.. Even saw a few love-birds like us sitting there hand in hand...

Wish i could too spend sometime there silently with her, but again... I had a lot to do and was running out of time...

From there, we caught the ferry to the Statue of Liberty... :)

What a sight it was... we were finally able to catch up the rising sun, as we sailed on the ferry... Splash of the water crashing on the front seemed like an orchestra while i was lost in her sun-drenched looks... she seemed a deity... deity of love... my goddess.

The ferry parked along the island and I went off to take the tickets. The Statue of Liberty... do i really have to say something about it ??... its a marvelous creation in its own-self... and here we were right in front of it...

After the trip to Statue, we went to Manhattan... the famous, Bryant Park for ice-skating...

Since morning, after every small surprise i felt her to be getting more and more excited and happy...

But, ice-skating was special... she just burst out and ran towards the counter to get her fav. colored skates...

Even though i am good skater... but, when ever i fell, she laughed and came to pick me up... so... i kept falling deliberately.... ;)

So many people were around us at that time, but still, i felt so lost in her... all i could see was sun shining on her face... hair flying with the breeze and the music of her voice... God... i was so in love with the moment....

By now, sun was almost at head... Time for lunch.. and now the biggest brawl comes... What cuisine today??... I like Indian... and she's more in Chinese...

Anyway, undoubtedly.. Chinatown was the next destination in the planner...

After the sumptuous meal (only for her)... we went for the stroll... kept going through the market in Chinatown... And, i was taken aback... that everything i ever saw, was sitting as replica at much much cheaper prices... be it electronics, home furniture or DVDs...

Anyhow, this was the right moment to buy her some gifts and specially at a very reasonable price ;)

so i took her to have some footwear and bought some chocolates... :)

And after all the roam... she said, "Hey m tired.. lets sit somewhere quiet...", and the moment i heard those words... my mind went to block... I had never planned that... Surprisingly, this was the first time ever i heard a woman she's tired roaming in market, shopping and sight-seeing.... :D

Or perhaps, she really wanted to spend some comfortable and alone time with me... and luckily i knew the exact spot for it...

Next Destination -- Botanical Garden....

I sat down with her under a tree... holding her hand... and all i noticed was... SHE WAS NEVER TIRED... she wanted me to rest for a while, because she knew i didn't sleep last night as i was busy watching her... and since morning i had been roaming here n there...

Taking the opportunity of which i kept my head in her lap.. and closed my eyes... Heaven it felt to me... I am sure, nothing in this world could have possibly met the peace-levels i was feeling....

Hmmmm.... it was almost sunset when we left the garden, and i knew what i was supposed to do... destination: Brooklyn Bridge...

"Wow...", she said as we felt the last few rays of setting sun... still holding hands and enjoying the warmth of one another... and soon, it was dark, cold and windy.... almost time we should step back home and enjoy a cozy night with each other....

So we stepped in metro, "Please stand clear of the closing doors... This is Far Rockaway bound A express train... ", I could never understand most of the conductor accent... but i guess she was born listening to it...

I had picked my favorite red wine on the way home.... and asked her.. to sit back and watch TV... but i knew she wouldn't, so i already had turned on the slow music and re-ran all the words in mind, i wanted to convey to her...

But to my surprise... she came... came closer... even closer... and kissed... didn't even let me say a word....

Anyhow, lets not discuss that... :P

So... I cooked... the Indian delicacy.... Shahi Paneer and Butter Naan... and we had it with wine.

It was almost time... the time i should rest for the day... but i never felt like letting her be parted of me any second... so we sat on the couch, next to fireplace to enjoy some cuddled time... meanwhile we watch TV...

But, I said to myself, "Whom am i really fooling... neither do I nor she is interested in this idiot box", specially after this fantastic day... Its time we should go to bed and probably be engaged in something else :)

So went and laid down cuddling each other..

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CRASH..........

I jumped on my couch...... just realizing it was all just a dream... but still it felt so much real to me...

still i had the taste of her lips on mine... and yet i could smell her in my clothes...

Finally, i smiled to myself... and said, "Dude.. she's just 7,315 miles away.."

But i do believe... She's not away... as long as she lives in my heart....

Love you Darling....

From Nothing to Everything !!

2010-05-01T10:51:00.000-07:00

First of all, I beg pardon of my readers… It’s been really long since my last post (end of December to be precise), anyhow a lot of things have happened in between like some self- wake-up calls and hibernation process with complete isolation, which one might suffer due to emotional breakdown.

Well, apart from all this a good thing has happened to me, i.e. Entry of one special person… Although, it’s irrelevant to talk about it here but will say that it was the source of enthusiasm to start writing once again.
So, what am I going to write about now??
It's something which happened this afternoon only, moments after that special person told me to start writting again, while i was in search for a good topic, this incident came through and i got a hold on to the Kite.. ;)

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“NTPC !!... NTPC!!... NTPC!!”, Rahul screamed as he was running up and down the corridor.

“Did you find the admit card? Any idea of the course content or is it again your going to be the specially privileged one to be selected without preparation”, I said in a rather teasing manner for he’s one of those who specially didn’t sit for placements and the best part is the reason which compelled him to do so, “I am not interested in IT… !!”.

“Don’t worry, he’s not going to crack it… He may be privileged but he’s jinxed as well…”, said Anurag with a witty and yet confident smile. The story of the jinx dates back to our 4th semester which was first limited to roll numbers 061081, 061082 and 061083… i.e. Nikhil, Nimit and Nisdham Krishna Koundinya, respectively. It was the time when we realized in spite of the amount of the hard work we put in during preparation nights, we cannot make it and also, the result of it was that we three had always showed a similar pattern on our grade sheets and floored cgpa’s. However, this jinx spread and people with good lucks too got infected. So, this way even Rahul showed the characteristics like us.

“Thanks… !!", said Rahul with a sarcastic tone, "Anyway, do have any money with you right now, like 500 or so?”, Rahul asked.

“Yeppp… I got 1000, but in ATM… 5968!”, I said offering my ATM Card.

“5..9……8…6”, said Rahul in half-tone while he was trying to memorize the number.

“Na… its 5968, imagine it on a keypad will get easier to remember”, I said to make it easier for him.

“Hey, You don’t have any phone number with 5968, how do you keep it in your mind… Ahaa.. I got it !!, it’s a cross.. isn’t it?”, Rahul said at once he observed the pattern he supposed I was using to memorize the code this far.

“Na, not a cross, its more like an infinity symbol…”, I corrected him.

The moment I spoke these words, I realized that I just imagined the transformation of “Cross” to “Infinity”.

Now, allow me to draw the two symbols for you.

What is the meaning of Cross and Infinity?

Cross: It is the mark which is used to indicate wrong, dead end and "nothing at all".

Infinity: It is the mark of unlimited, limitless, endless and "Everything".

What is the difference between two of them?

Its just the two sides an infinity symbol has in addition to a cross symbol. If we add such two sides to a cross we will receive infinity. But, this will definitely leave one perplexed with simple yet complex questions like, such addition of sides is all with which we can transform from nothing to everything? What is this pencil we need to draw with? Is it possible on the plane of imagination or on reality too?

And answer to this is, Yes it is real, its possible in reality too. “Transformation: Nothing to Everything” is a real concept, and to be very frank you really just need to draw the two sides in your present “nothing” state. But, what are these two sides? What do they signify? What do we need to do?

Lets answer it one by one,

What are these two sides?

To answer this, observe the image below… the two sides are the Leaps you need to make on the two intersecting black tracks from one track to another.

Leap 1: Leap of Hard work. (Blue)
Leap 2 : Leap of Faith. (Red)

And the two sides are,

What do these sides signify?

These sides are the jump over which happens when you and your progress is stuck a point in your career. It’s when you just can’t handle things and always look for escapes. It’s when you have a pile of pending files over your desk, It’s when you can see a bunch of dirty coffee mugs overnight, when you start seeing far much cigarette butts on floor than fallen hair or when, when you realize that you had passed out over the booze or drugs you took relieve tension.
These are the points where you the need the Leap of Hard work. This is the time when you need to leave all the worries and focus yourself on everything you come across one by one, without taking results into consideration one should start working.

And, Leap of Faith comes in handy when you’ve successfully taken the leap of hard work and have done all the necessary tasks to be performed, keeping all the work done in your checklist. This is the time when you have to wait and see the results crawling towards you.

What do we need to do?

Nothing. One doesn't have to do anything at all about it. Signs will be produced in your life automatically when its time to take a leap, like you getting stressed and irritated with everything, quarrels over pity matters, etc. are the signifiers of work-related stress, so all we need to do is bring up the big pile and start doing it. (i.e. Leap of Hard work)

And for, Leap of Faith, I must say it is to be taken only after the leap of Hard work, its usual signs are, no work in checklist, no results popping up, getting impatient and checking mails every 30 minutes for any updates, dropping the outings because of something important that might come up today and then later realize that nothing important happened at all. In such case, all you have to do is sit back and take a long breath, pick up phone and arrange an outing, come back home and start with some totally different motif of work and let the results lie in the hands of god.

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This is how I am sure you will be able to complete the transformation from “Nothing” to “Everything”. Which really seems to be practical enough.
I hope this small thought was a good help to you. There are still many people who don’t understand this logic, I request you dear reader to spread the word so that many others can be helped.

Adios.

Polish Your Luck...!!!!!

2009-12-12T13:34:00.000-08:00

Friend :“ek baat puchu..

faltoo ki hai..

wt u doin? ..

wasie..”

Me: “Surrogates movie..

waiting ki kahin kisi post par panga shurru ho..

taaki comment bazi kari jaye :) ”

Friend: “ :-P

acha...

temme hw do u think.. one cn improve 1s luck

lame ques i kno'but jst ans.. ”

How simple, it was to face this question when asked by one of my very good friends. But, later when I sat down and actually contemplated about it, I realized that how simple-simple matters combine to make one excessively complex process… as complex as reaching the shore of Success of one's ambition.

Luck… Luck… what is this damn luck which we scream about… have nightmares of…!!

Wikipedia says -- Luck or Fortuity is a belief in good or bad fortune in life caused by accident or chance which happens beyond a person's control. Luck is significant in everyday life. It is an unknown and unpredictable phenomenon that causes an event to result one way rather than another.

But, is it really limited to this much only?

Naaaaaah… for me, Luck is a factor playing an important role in achieving success, like a catalyst it works… where another factor is Hard work. It is not just one’s luck which is going to make someone successful, in fact, it’s a balanced product of ‘Hard work’ with ‘Luck’, to say analytically,

Hard work * Luck = Success

But, this seems to be just a general product… what do I mean by Balanced product?
Yes, this is just an ordinary equation… By balanced product I mean to include the inequalities too. In actual, an inequality equation is what limits this product, suppose, the product of these two factors which yields ‘Success’ in one’s short/long term goal is ‘X’.

Then, the inequality which governs is that ‘No Success’ will be the result until the product follows the inequality given below,

X < (Hard work * Luck) <>

In other words, ‘Success’ will come only when,

(Hard work * Luck) = X

Where, X = the product of ‘Hard work’ with ‘Luck’ which yields ‘Success’. And, is the most appropriate value which is constant for one individual but may vary from person to person. And, the variable factors are ‘Hard work’ and ‘Luck’ for every individual task.

Another, question that arises is how exactly is ‘Hard work’ and ‘Luck’ are correlated?

There are three cases in one’s life when pertaining to a situation as in image below:

Case I: A lot of hard work and no luck.
Case II: A lot of luck but no hard work.
Case III: A balance of hard work with your luck.

In above cases, I and II are useless because the result will be simply ‘No Success’ whereas in III output is ‘Success’. So, for success you need to strike the right balance.

Now, when the luck is prominent then it is easy to put in hard work, in comparison to, when the hard work is present but no luck can be seen, what should be done when one lacks luck and is tired of putting in efforts and start believing that all is for vain.

NOW, YOU NEED TO POLISH YOUR LUCK !!

Yes, you read it right and how exactly are you going to do so,

Black Magic?
Cut a few lambs, light a few candles, wait two fortnights for a full moon and to apply some necromancies to get your good share of luck working. Naaaaaaaaaaaaah… it wont do…

Praying?
Going to church/temple/mosque everyday, feed the skinny Brahmins, donate some sheets and money, coconut water bath? Would praying and wishing to your god for good luck work? I’m sure this might work after all involves god’s buttering and all… But, really it doesn’t.

I know a way it can be done, but for that I need to be dead sure that you are desperate for it. For now, I shall take your word that you will go up to any extent and would step back.

First, ask yourself how badly do you want a change? Are you and body in sync for this change? Is it really your decision to change or is it that because you have lost to your situations and want to runaway?

Once, you do all this and have a positive answer… from the very moment start to,

IGNORE YOUR LUCK!!

Confused?

Naturally… how luck works is, you pray for it, you beg or go to any extent for it, the more you’ll do so the more you’ll repel it. Not convinced? ... Have you seen any rich business man or successful entrepreneur crying over his damned luck?

This world is complexly based on a few simple relations but very powerful in nature and application, like,

Law of Absolute Equilibrium. (In terms of fate)
Law of Attraction.

Absolute Equilibrium: deals with absolute equilibrium in what a person had, has or will have in future. And at the same time, keeping equilibrium in past, present and future lives.

Law of Attraction: deals with what you ever experienced, faced or will attract in future to yourself, is the result of what and how you are thinking in present.
The more negative you think, the more deeply, attached with strong emotions you feel negative about a matter will lead you to more negativity in life.

Suppose, you hate standing in queue and curse everyone whenever you wait then, in actual, you are thinking about the people ahead of you and the queue, everything which is going in your head is just queue & this is what you will attract more, be it metro train tickets, movie tickets, bill submission, red lights or traffic jams.

But now, this doesn’t mean that if all the time you think about money only, then you’ll manifest the same. It works in three steps,

Request

Visualize

Receive

Now, the ways to get this luck thing get started, all you have to do is,

Set an idol, it can be your parents, god or any XYZ thing.

Before starting your work or new assignment, just once wish for a better luck and then feel what your work would result into if you had all the luck required.

And, then keep everything aside and start your hard work, where step 2 is the last time you think about the results or luck until you get the results physically.

Keep this in mind, luck is like a bitch, the more you lose to it, the more u will sulk & the more you overpower, it will become your under-dog. Also, it doesn’t work overnight as one may expect, it’s a change often happens at a snarl’s pace… So, make this change your habit.

Now, let’s do something to kick start ‘Luck’ in your life,

Know yourself – for this, you should yourself inside out, make a note of yourself; know your limits and your weaknesses. Check out the following links to know about a sun-sign in detail,

Aquarius.

Pisces.

Aries.

Taurus.

Gemini.

Cancer.

Leo.

Virgo.

Libra.

Scorpio.

Sagittarius.

Capricorn.

Believe yourself – Everyday, go to mirror and say a HI to yourself, admire self and thank your god for giving everything. Don’t forget to give yourself a hearty smile before leaving. It may sound foolish to do, but always keep this in mind that you are on a path to change yourself and your luck and such menial tasks should not bother you at all.

Organize yourself – Keep your senses open, talk to people, make note of things you have to do further, in reference to Fair n Lovely Funda.

Free yourself – Free yourself from all the hassles like, He commented this, he said that… today this happened and tomorrow that might.

Like yourself to Fullest – If you feel like jumping then jump, you wanna dance then dance… but always keep a check to recourse to your normal-self and continue with your work.

Remember,

To run a highway, you don’t need to know the whole road,
Just look up as far as the light goes, rest will unravel on its own.

I’ve given you the first step… Now, you have to climb the staircase… Staircase to Wisdom, Happiness and Success.

Also,

Kuch aacha hone se pahle bahut bura hota hai…

Believe in self, thank your god and love your family.

Cheers.

"Fair n Lovely" for Life.... !!

2009-11-08T09:54:00.000-08:00

"Woh jab bhi delhi aata hai... ghar zaroor aata hai...", she said with a heartily smile on her face... happiness beyond any limits... and eyes full of Love which seemed to be so Pure that i could have bet even Heaven on that.

"Hey... that's sweet, lucky you... isn't that Lovely..??", i said with rather a fake smile bcoz i was still entangled in that lustrous Chevrolet Captiva.

"yup it is... :))", she smiled again and had a glance at me... Just to realize i was busy checking out that girl next door.. ;)

Now call it the general sense of jealousy or whatever it was.. She was smoking hot like a pot... ;)

"Fir Kya Hua", Abhay, my friend asked, as all this time i was narrating in the filmy style, all what had happened between me and Saloni in last 24 hours...

"Fir... she left aur kya... man, these girls are sometimes such a big pain in....", I was interrupted by Abhay, "Bhai, Family audience bhi baithe hai yahaan.... Hushh....!!!"

"Hmmm... right he said...", i said to myself... Anyway, this wasn't the first time it was happening.

About Saloni... hmmmm.. height, ummm.... 5'5" i guess... complexion fair.. figure **-**-** (family audience).. Hmm.. what else do u really care for in a girl.. ;)

Anyway... it was time for our band performance, so.. smoked the last joint.. and...

"LETS HIT IT GUYS !!!....", we screamed at top of our lungs... and walked over to the stage!!
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"We Lost... WE LOST Yarrr", i said... in a quiet a sulking tone.

"Koi baat nahi Rocky.. i know, your the very best... judges might have been bribed... there's no way anyone can outstand you... I know you'll win it some place else... I believe in you.. I Love you Rocky... I Love you... Bilkul bura mat feel kar tu... we all are here n with you...", she said.. with intermittent pauses in between...

I could clearly realize... she was crying... i was the one who had lost it all and she was the one who was crying... was this love ?? why was she crying.. why the hell was she so much depressed..??

"Bache... aap ro rahe ho... areeee.... nahi.. aree.. it was just a competition yarr.. Haar gaye toh kya hota hai.. Accha hua, waise bhi competition was too low, jeet kar bhi aacha nahi lagta and i'm sure woh Takkluu Judge was biased... I could see in his perverted eyes, the way he was looking that Lead Singer...", i tried to say it in a more cheering manner...

Now i must tell you what exactly she is, Saloni... Not just a piece of meat that every guy wants to have... Not just another girl in someone's friend list... She's my Saloni... Rocky's Saloni... A final year student... Daughter of Retd. Brig. Amrindar Singh Ahluwalia... A rehabbed drug abuser... A girl who rose from the very ashes of life and came to into existence as my love of life when there wasn't even a single place for feelings left out.

And who's Rocky ??... Just a plain simple guy... habitual of Performing in Band Competition, Lead guitarist... That's me... a little complexly simple.

Many times i have seen... People crying... people sulking on their personal lives... giving up themselves to Drugs, Cigarettes and Alcohol... so as to avoid the very feeling of being lonely when actually such acts make them one... They look for options... which degrade them... make them so cheap that they look forward to such mendicant acts...

Really.. what a fool they make of themselves... i am no exception to them either... but at least i was able to realize that... somehow... Had it not been her.. i could have never done that... n all thanks to her simple but really useful funda... The "Fair n Lovely" for Life.
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She had found a very general solution or definition to be Happy.. :)
To beautify one's life... his soul... the aura around him... The Feeling of Well-being around him.. Really i was so amazed, she had a solution to all this.. !!

She proposed... simply, Divide the things around you in two parts...

Things which make you feel Happy and make you feel so good that you just start loving your life. they could be like anything... like doing drugs, meeting your friends.. chilling out with them... drinking... smoking... Talking on phone for hours and hours... making robots... Msging Msging Msging... Cheating in exams... Beating up guys... Making out with your lover... Chatting... or simply, Pooja Paath.
Things which you and people directly associated to you (like your parents and close friends) believe to be beneficial for you...

These are the only two things you should be doing... And that's the only Concept of "Fair and Lovely" for Life...

"Fair" are the things which are beneficial for you and people around you for whom you care and "Lovely" are things which make you feel good and make it Love your Life... And all one has to do in his Life is, the Union of the Fair and the Lovely things... that means.. do things which are duly accepted in these two appellations... Things which lie both in Fair and in Lovely.. This is the only and the best thing which can make you do something other than sulking, make ppl around you Happy, which in turn, will make you Happy.

Application of this everyday will surely beautify your life...

Really, i wondered... this little charming girl said what great lines... Isn't this something we all need to at this point of time when we are so depressed and fed up of our lives... Still, Muddled in the pain of deciding what to do... still wallowing in the dirt of some shitty piggeries... stuck in the gallows !!

Wouldn't this work out.. ???
wouldn't it solve all the problems we have...

I'm just a simple guy with average brain power and average thinking... A graduate in studies of Music... I've never done any work on philosophy and i am no doctor or engineer...
All i know is I love that Girl... and She's always right... and the same i would like to say to you... Realize this Funda and apply to beautify your own life..

A Moral is like a Coral with the Only diffrence bieng,
Coral beautifies one's body and a Moral, it beautifies one's Life.

-- Rocky

The Stranger

2009-11-03T12:04:00.000-08:00

Beep Beep Beep...

"Kya hai... din bhar ungliyaan hi chalate rahte ho.. kabhi laptop par.. kabhi cellphone.. kabhi haath pair bhi chala liya karo !!", my mom exclaimed as the phone kept ringing..

"no way.. u cuming.. v not knw anything", said sonam.. God, she has done language course in French... but often i believe it could have been better had she done a course in English... anyway...

"Yaar... Nahi yaar... =/ ", "Aacha fine.. in what time ??", "Damnit... in just 15 mins... !!", I said after a few useless replies from her side except "Someone special is coming"..
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"Yaar.. yeh Sejal kabhi time par nahi aati hai.. kya karun mein iska.. !!", said Sonam with touch of Kali Mata's anger in her eyes, for a moment even i myself was wondering if she's gonna really kill her or is it me who's going to get the beating.

"Arreee.. kuch mat kar.. chill maaar.. she knows, we need to spend a lot more time alone", I said with a strikingly distinct flirty tone.

Hey Hey.. Nothing like that i love to flirt (actually i do).. But its simple that i cant afford to be serious when with them... Little Sweethearts they are... I hope their Boyfriends are not reading this... ;) :->

Hmmm.. So.. Finally they Arrived.. Sejal and The Special One..
Hmmmm.. She was... really.. Impressive... a very appealing suit, white in color.. hair pulled back.. lip gloss.. aaahh.. what an impressive girl.. but.. ummmm... But i wished she was like in structure.. anyway.. a real good girl.. i could notice some flesh too.. but had i indicated that earlier i would have been hanged... !!

Hmmm.. I was seriously smitten by the looks... And then Sejal introduced her... "Nikhil.. this is Ridhima... Ridhima.. THIS is Nikhil", pointing at me as if i had committed a felony.

I immediately offered a hand... didn't want to lose the very chance to get the first touch
and the first words dropped down from those lovely glossed lips, "Ohh.. toh yeh hai Nikhil... !!" as she shook hands with me.

We grabbed ourselves some place to sit... Luckily i got the couch... man, what a lovely couch it was.. :D

So, it was Sejal and Ridhima in front of me.. and Sonam besides me..
Honestly Speaking... I wasn't able to get my eyes off her which left me with no option and no sense of what was happening around me and there she said, "I'm really shocked... the guy who was unstoppable in chats, is so so so quiet in person..."

Anyway... we kept chatting.. here n there.. this n that.. n then she said.. "Yarr... i gotta go... its late.. !!" so, somehow we convinced her to tell a lie to her parents and forge out some time... :)

And, in all this i really could not help imagining her.. WOW !!
it was fun.. thodi se face reading.. thodi se assumptions.. thode se tukke.. :)

All the time i was praying.. "Yaar kaash yeh single ho..".. "Please.. koi past na ho.." "Please Please Please.. !!"

Anyway... This is how she came across to me for the first time... We started Chatting on FB too.. Initially i was holding back a lot when i used to chat.. taking care of little little things, etc etc...
But later, after few months i realized... I don't need to do all this... Awesome Chick hai.. Single bhi hai... Hit maarne ka sahi mauka bhi hai... Lets just go for it..

But.. But.. But.. Shes Pretty Smart... i could figure out that... so i thought to give it a little more time... and this was the golden period when i realized what exactly she is..

Beneath her thick skin... lies a very soft hearted girl.. Beneath her peppy talks lies a lady who can be unimaginably strong n matured... Beneath her "JI JI" thing lies an extremely naughty girl... Beneath herself... lies the Ridhima...

Sorry Darling... Can't really say much for u.. coz there's a lot more to know about you... !!

And Readers... This is not a heartfelt sentimental blog... This is just because i lost a bet and i was forced to write it!! :D

But, in any case i loved to write it... :))

Chaaao...

We need... ??

2009-10-29T23:09:00.000-07:00

post..... :|

Post... !!! :O

POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! x-(

I need a new post... i need to write a new one... anyhow... anything... Stuck in such bizarre moment, i lay down... thinking... but still not coming up to any conclusion... heavy head kept screaming which echoed more than anything else, why should i?? whats my reason?? do i have my resolve yet??

I tried answering these question, tried to get the most reasonable and such an answer which would pose me as a great guy... with awesome sense of living... etc etc..

But really, i was stuck at only one thing... I realized that i was only trying to run away... run away from the depths of being incomplete... from the world where everything comes to a halt after sometime... be it the success coming up, be it free caller tune service, be it that pretty girl/guy who you met a week before... everything will come to an end... and i kept running away from all of it.

Running away from accepting the fact that this Blog Funda is temporary and will soon wrap up... Running away from accepting that this can happen with everyone... Running away from every reality which comes crashing down to pulverize my lies.

Really, But is this the case with others too??
Are we all running from something?? Are we all afraid of something??

Trying to hide from our very own existence... Ignoring someone just for the sake of not seeing that one puny thing, that one insignificant person which might provoke us, who might release us from the shackles of our control and consciousness..!!

Why... do us, we Humans... possessor of Tiny Insignificant Heart n Mind, have to think about matters around us... matters which we know can't be resolved but yet whose solution is as easy as 1+1 = 2.

Why do we need to attach ourselves with people and their things that later we end up crying over our muddled lives with some grains left in hand.

GOD !!!..... aren't ppl around us getting more n more depressed with every passing moment??
Yes.. they are.. Yes.. ppl are not good.. Yes.. ppl are depressed with themself... Yes.. ppl do hate others... Yes... Yes... YES !!

But, is that going to change the reality?? will that change the fate of that person??
Of course not... but still, see... we run away from accepting the reality... and still, we tend to find bits of comfort in our devastated relationships... Still, we tend to pose high-fi and then later cry over the phone...

So Hollow........ So Weak....... Unimaginably worthless.....
What kind of ppl we have transformed into... no one is happy... nobody cares... and still no body is ready to Accept.. Accept the Pain, the Pleasure... the Resurection, the Demolition...We Shun... but still we have to Show.. !!

God... how wasted we are.. !!

English Project File

2009-10-18T08:31:00.000-07:00

Cleaning my place.. throwing some old stuff out.. clinging to resolve -- AAJ TOH SAAFAI KARKE HI RAHUNGI !!!

Mom found one very interesting file... English Project File... Weird naa.. exactly.. that's what i exclaimed when she handed it over to me....

Seriously... i was flipping through it.. first thing in it was related to Fire Alarm, which my bro had made in XI class... then the main file started.. topics were..

Cuttings on people.
Cuttings on environment.
Cuttings on offers.
Cuttings on Science Facts.
Bar Graph of Marks in Term 1 and Term 2.
Nature Poem.

I flipped... flipped.... flipped... with a big smile on face, which left mom perplexed with what was going through my mind !!

She kept on asking, "Hass kyun Rha hai !!... hass kyun rha hai.. !! "

But, now how do i make her understand... that even i didn't had any inkling about it... in fact, i wasn't even listening to what she said... lost in my own world, i was just flipping..

From cuttings of some "Smart Survivor in maze of politics" to cutting from "Obituary".. from "Noise levels during Diwali" to "Reasons to keep Air Clean"... i was just flipping, rather going through at ultra fast pace.
skipping the science section and marks distribution graph.. i directly came onto the Poem part...
still wondering if i wrote it... and, if i did then when..

Anyway, i read it.. "Here it Comes"... appellation of the poem.. and the next thing in mind was, "Yeaaa.. of course.. here it comes, hogi koi pakaaau, bakwaas shayari meri phir se !!.. "

Here it comes, here it comes,
Sun is down, calm and sound.

Here it comes, here it comes,
ringing bells in sea-shells, scaring away the red knights of sun

Here it comes, here it comes,
night is falling, showing her face to mankind.

Here it comes, here it comes,
Here it comes, here it comes.

-- Nikhil Pandey
IX-E
K.V.A.G.C.R.

"Ninth !!!!!!... i wrote this in ninth.. mann.. !! did i had any talent back then.. ??", questioning myself i was smiling... i recalled... it was back then, when the teacher had asked us to write a poem (no cheating) and present it in class... i still remember, how proudly i stool among the other 5 people.

:)) ... to be honest, i never had been good in scoring... always believed in education with a little twist, its not like i never knew or understood whats going in class or no idea of the subject... but it was just that i was more of a recreational guy... Marks ke peeche kaun pade !! (which still reflects in my CGPA !!)

By now, i was able to recall every moment when i wrote it... it was evening, looking out from my room's window... i kept on scribbling in the notepad, every tits n bits of matter that could strike my mind.. still struggling hard with words (first time tha yar... words never come easily..) !!
Anyway, after 1000 cuttings and paragraph positioning.. i was able to compose this one..

And, the best moment was when my teacher asked, "Nikhil, you wrote this.. !! NO.. i can't believe it.. !!" and then i ran to grab that notepad, flipping out the pages for the one i needed... and then with a Confidence full of Pride, i present a page, full of Cuttings, twisted words, spelling mistakes and i say, "Ma'am, this is the rough i did... Mein sachi bol rha hun... maine hi likhi hai..." and then when ma'am accepted.. and i swaggered down the class to my last bench.. !! -- this was the moment, when i had my first ride with words... since then it has changed a lot (for better i guess)... things, people, matters, emotions... but still, there's one thing... which didn't change.. it was ME!!

Its not just me... if u look around yourself... so many things have changed... Talk about that tall building which was eating dust a few years back or talk about that abandoned flat where the new girl lives... be it the new car of Mr. Mehra or new cellphone of Ashi... Everything's constantly changing... its just you, who has been keeping his identity for such a long time now... So... ultimately, i urge to find yourself... deep in you... do exactly what u like to do... one will find it foolish to follow.. but, one day you'll realize.. that when u look back into your memory bank, it's such weird and unreasonable things only, which show their face and leave a smile... !!

Confusion

2009-10-09T16:47:00.000-07:00

Strange appellation to this post... right ??
Yes sir, it is... in fact, i was confused until the very last moment of publishing this post !!

To have a look people around me, we have maths champs... extremely outgoing ppl... authors... druggists... cooks... journalists... dancers... doctors... in overall, we meet a plenty of people, masters of their field with experience ranging from zero to infinity.. And in present times, where there is such a rat race... such strong competition going on... its really hard or should i say baseless to aim low, everyone wants 100%, everyone wants to be in the top cream, everyone strives to be the master...

But ever cared to meet a jack of all trades... you must have never met a person who could do everything, if not completely but still upto some good amount... And has ever anyone or you have thought of being just a Jack... A Jack of Everything.. ??

I have, i want to be one... I don't want to wait for the electrician to fix the lights for me... I don't want myself running down when my phone dies... I don't want kick my CPU when its full of viruses... I don't want to stay quiet if someone resorts for my help in any matter...
But, i do want to serve my guests with the best style possible, i want to be center of attraction when comes to problem solving and all i want is ability to fix or at least try to fix any vagrant problem... But, then at the same time...getting such ability is really difficult.

Right from the start, we are taught to be master of one and rely on others for different matters.
But, even that's not entirely bad, its good to be social & ask others for help... But isn't it good to have an idea of everything on your own too??

Why are we taught to do things & keep sticking to them until we are master of them and when you have mastered it then keep pursuing the same thing up your entire life... Why does one has to become one thing in life, can't he be multi-dimensional??

Is it necessary to be stuck in old dirt?? Why can't we experience all the faces of life we want to??
Why can't we just DO things, GAIN from it and GO forward in life, to do some other thing?? and make ourselves exposed to so many things, realize matters and gain knowledge... make ourselves tougher !!

Coming onto another aspect... there are two parts of society... like, of a house, the upper part and the lower part.

Upper part -- the walls, the floors... anything above the ground.

Lower part -- the Foundation... those few feets of Brick-work, on which the whole upper part is standing... the raising platform.

if u look more closely, u'll realize that every season the upper parts get a new paint job, plastering.. care, love and appreciation.
and, lower part... nobody looks at it... bas... ek baar bana dia and bhool gaye... But look at the irony of it, if u'll remove it then the whole building will come crashing down... Those few bricks, subjected to eternal darkness, stress and pressure.... all that just to make the building stand better... Clearly, The brick of the foundation needs to be tougher than the ones used for structure.

Similar way... is the side of Masters and Jugaados... Masters make up the face of the society... and Jugaado ppl make up the lower part.. nobody appreciates them, but still they are necessary, they are the ones who know a lot.. But still.... anyway, these Jugaad ppl need to be more stiff-minded.. and so they are.

but, if i ponder over it further... Exposing myself to various professions will make me resource full for sure.. I will gain a good stand as "JUGAADO" in society, i will make enough money i need to sustain myself...but will it get money so that i may level up from just sustaining?? will it get me the name, the respect i desire in society, will it benefit me and my upcoming generations...???

That's something everyone nowadays is facing... A choice !!... and to be honest many of us don't even have a slightest idea of how to get through it...

Should i pursue a dream which makes me happy, makes me feel much more suited, makes me feel free.... or should i think of my family, think of my upcoming kids, think of money and do a job which will simply suck out everything i have, every bit of life and throw bundles of note on my face... ??

it really shakes me up sometimes and leaves me with a questions... rather a choice.. of pride or freedom??? dignity or family?? money or happiness?? responsibility or... myself??

Remembrance...

2009-10-06T00:39:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking this evening.. wasn't sure what to write or what to not.. in fact, i'm pretty unsure for now too.

One of my very good friend, Sejal, had been kicking me like anything to write something... something to acknowledge the term "Friendship". But, how can i make her understand that words for such things are hard to come up, not sure if i'll write a good piece like the ones before, but still.. lets give it a shot.

Friend : ummmmm.. dances with you in rains.. you can scream your heart out when drunk.. shoulder to cry upon when sad... person to hug when extremely happy... the person whom you can call midnight and say "yaarr... bhukk lag rhi hai!! mann bhi nahi lag rha hai... apna thoda sa dimaag de de na khaane ko :(( .... Puhhhhlleeeezzz.... :) " ... or is it more???

Really, to be honest.. friendship is limitless... its Murious.
Its a True and Honest relationship which knows no boundations, no reason, no plea and no rules.
You surely must be having many people around you tall, thin, dark, healthy, short, fat, fair, wheatish complexion... There are so many people whom you contact in day to day life... so many people you come across... but at the end of the day, its one's Friends only which prove to be the ultimate Stress-buster.

I've been really very fortunate... THANK LORD, for having wonderful friends around me, who secretly played significant role in my life... Manipulating, twisting, configuring, inspiring and motivating for the best...

Thinking of how i got started with Sejal (the sole person to whom i will dedicate this post), it was a spark... ummmm... out of nowhere we just got on.

Story goes something like this... She used to study in same tution as me, but i being shy guy, we never conversed much and that too was in 8th or 9th.. and then she left n i didnt get to see her.
Then one fine day, while i was coming back home from school (in 11th), proudly on my Atlas Vogue... As some work going on the side-lanes i thought to change my route.. This was when i saw her going home... bag loosely hung from one shoulder, looking downwards, a specky and thin girl, quite lucrative body structure, as i gave a closer look i could see pretty more interesting matters... pretty interesting she was looking (wont mind saying this...) ;)

For a moment, i was left agape and kept on thinking what do i do...!!! anyway, it would have been really awkward to say a "Hi" just like that after so long... so i peddled up the cycle and went past her.

Next day, with heart beat pumping to max, i left late from school, again took that route and again saw her.. but still, didn't greet her though i was paying full attention expecting her to say "HI", i crossed her sluggishly... but still.. nothing happened.

I spent a few days doing the same, trying to find the average time when she leaves from school, shows up on the gate of Defence Enclave and then heads up to home after having a good chat with Keertika (her friend)... I wanted to do so for two reasons, One -- i didn't want to act like a fool as i waited for her to show up.. and Second -- i obviously wanted her to be alone when i talk to her as i didn't have enough guts to talk with someone around.. :P :D

Sometimes fixing the cycle, sometimes fixing the bag, sometimes tying and untying shoe laces or fixing the cycle chain, i did all till she showed up, so i could note the time & finally i was able to calibrate my timings to her...

Step 2 -- TALK TO HER... the hardest part was it, really, talking to a girl... & worst part is that she knows me, so this rules out the "just like that" entry.

Reason! Reason! Reason! Reason! Reason! ... i wanted this to strike a conversation with her.. :(

And Finally, one day... i got it.. was peddling at high speed, taking sharp turns and SCREEEEEEEEEECH !!
i braked hard as a car came unknowingly, skidding the cycle sideways towards her, i was wondering or worried or perhaps muddled up that if i am going to hit her or not, anyway whatever it was... it left her pale and there was my chance... it felt as if the reason i was looking all over came running to me like a beautiful bride, dressed elegantly in white and flowers being showered all over.. !! :P

Taking advantage of it or what people call "Chance pe Dance..", i said, "Ohh.. shit.. i'm sorry, kahin lagi toh nahi...", "you're okay, right??" and there she was with a strikingly disfigured smile, "Yes, of course i am fine", "Its okay, i am fine.."

Ummmmm.. then without wasting any time i said, "you're sejal right.. ??", still apologizing once in a while, which was really to actually borrow sometime and think over what to say next..

Gazing into her pink glasses, i wondered how can glasses be colorful :-/
coz i had never seen one... anyhow, she later told me that she gets them tinted.. we kept chatting, kept walking...
And then at Swasthya Vihar Market she said, "Yuppp.. so, Nikhil, it was nice meeting you, ab yahaan se you'll have to head back your home, yahaan sab mujhe jaante hai...", the very next moment i said, "Haan, ofcourse.. infact i was about to say same thing..." & smiled... must have been the most amusing or probably the Dumbest smile or whatever it was, but she laughed. This really gave me some confidence & i headed back to my home with a limo long smile.

Fir kya thaaaaaa.... !!
we started talking pretty often, i used to sometime wait for her on the gate and vice-versa & then we headed back together, it was a nice feeling..... hehehe.. or may be the hormones... :D :D
Finally, it became more of a routine, we used to meet after school, talk for a while.. in fact she was the first girl i was so open... and the first one i was hitting on...

She must be laughing if shes reading it right now... So, this is how it all started, now i've known her for more than 8 years... we are best of friends.. There have been times when we've gone through some rough patches(in our respective lives) but this friendship we had, helped a lot getting out of the abyss.
I'm really thankful for her... for.. ummm.. actually nothing materialistic.. but thank you, for the way they feel.. the way they make me feel.. :))

So, now all i have to say is be Honest, be caring, stop pretending & be a true friend... Its very very necessary and being a friend is really a very tough job.
Cherish your friends, praise them, kick them, beat them, worship them or love them... But do it with fair intentions and a True Heart.

There are plenty of things which cannot be shared, plenty of emotions that can't be expressed, numerous coffee moments which are left unsaid... but i think, this is what all together makes Friendship.

Just can't end this post.. anyway have to... so, i'll do it with the loveliest lines from Nickelback's Song -- If Everyone Cared.

If everyone cared and nobody cried,
If everyone loved and nobody lied,
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride,
Then we'd see the day, when nobody died.

The Power of Dreams

2009-09-20T08:05:00.001-07:00

Isn't it really awkward to have dreams...??

Dreams of the car u saw the other day.. dream of that awesome chick half naked.. dream of getting top score in exams... dream of the first salary.. dream of snakes, birds and other animals... !!

Yes it is... really, that's one simple thing which even Science cannot explain, how it establishes its relation with the reality yet to come.. does our mind time-travel and collects info and displays us the matter ???

DON'T KNOW ABOUT IT !!... but it does work... and what you perceive in dream is not the reality but its meaning is real.. Confused??

i meant, if you see someone screaming at you.. then its not that someone will actually shout at you... but, to hear or dream that someone is screaming indicates that some friend or family member is in need of your help.

Weird ???
Yes, of course... even i used to say the same.. then a few personal experiences and i started believing too.

Lets first get on to the meaning of Dreams... !!
but before that, let me tell u essence of what i had learned from myBlack Magic Endeavors.. Firstly, Its a really shitty thing to get into, don't ever even think of doing it, bcoz its totally based on Equilibrium, if u want something to happen, something has to pay up...
and, it requires a great deal of concentration... Anyhow, i thought of building my concentration levels first...

Steps for building your concentration levels, is as follows:

Free your mind... for this you need to worry your mind n body from every crap u have, like, water n electricity bills, idiotic boss, monotonous workload, soporific lectures... EVERYTHING.
And do so, sit down, close ur eyes... imagine a really big Trashcan.. imagine yourself putting all these worries into it... do it for 3-4 times a day (if u are novice).

Build up Concentration Level.. for this, (after completing level 1), maintain a diary and a specific Black PEN (black body, black ink).. every night, before going to bed, keep it besides you... and say to yourself "I will note each and every thing i see in my dreams... and will raise my Concentration Levels..". Now, Sleep.. when u wake up... spend at least 15 minutes recalling what you saw in ur dreams and jot it down in ur diary... initially, it will be more in points but as u will advance you'd be able to recall dreams completely.

By this, you'd be able to raise ur concentration level and build up a good channel between your conscious and sub-conscious mind...

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Dreams, there are plenty of confusing definitions for it, ranging from core myth to scientific reasoning... from new born child to the old guy in neighborhood...
lets first start with the generality of what Dreams really are...

Dreams are a communication of body, mind and spirit in a symbolic communicative environmental state of being. That's it! Now that you are thoroughly confused let me explain in layman's language. Our brains are in constant activity. Different states of consciousness (like awake, asleep, alert, drowsy, excited, bored, concentrating or daydreaming) cause different brain wave activity. Our conscious mind, or the part we think with, our "window" into life, only takes up a very small portion of our brain activity. (some say this is only 10%) Other areas control things like breathing, heartbeat, converting light to vision, sound to hearing, balance when we walk, etc. etc. This too has it's own percentage (small). Another area controls imagination. This area is widely an undiscovered frontier.

Imagination is more then dreaming of a new car or picturing someone with their cloths off! When you look at clouds and see shapes, or wood grain and see images, this is the "order from chaos" part of your imagination. The mind cannot deal with chaos very well, in fact it will resist it and sometimes manufacture order. (very important to the dreaming process.)This too occupies a small percentage of brian activity. Then there is memory. Memory is vast! And I believe it occupies more of the brains resources then most people believe.

And then there is the activity called dreaming. I think that to a certain extent, we dream all the time. Even while awake! But the process is functioning in our subconscious mind, out of view from our "window". If defined precisely, they may not be referred to as dreams technically, but the activity is very closely related. During certain cycles of brain activity while asleep, we can "view" these dreams with our conscious mind and record them in our memory. (this is why we sometimes remember them, thou i remember most of them, God's Gift.. Or probably that's because i had practiced remembering them).

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So, What are dreams?

Well, with the above kept in mind (especially the order from chaos part) try to imagine this.; Your brain mind and spirit, while at rest "review" and analysis in it's own way long term, short term and spirit memory. It kicks around emotions, thoughts, ideas, actions and interactions of the short term memory. It has in it's background the trends of your life and philosophy to influence it. Your mind is also processing spiritual data, your beliefs, whether or not you violated them, your information gained through psychic intuition (we ALL have this to a certain degree) and of course, any communication from God. ALL THIS data, as well as your subconscious "reading between the lines" of what people do and tell you, is then processed unsupervised by you!

All this data is a form of chaos, and your mind (like seeing images in wood grain or clouds) puts it all together in a form of visual "screenplay", a medley of sight, sound,emotion and imagined interactivity. The end result is.... You guessed it, a dream!

Ahh, but would it not be nice if it were that simple! :P
Dreams are easily influenced by factors in your life and spirit, and these influences create "categories" that are almost infinite. We do broadly categorize them in terms like "prophetic, standard, physical and nightmare" (to name just a few) And these we study each their own, in order to gain benefit from them. I look at it this way: Our mind and spirit together with our brain, is actually the greatest computer ever devised! To understand it's "back of the house" processing is to learn more about ourselves, God, our future and each other. Many things can be gained from dreams, better health (mental and physical), entertainment and even financial gain! (dreaming of a invention or idea) Now that you know some of the basics about dreaming and what (theoretically) dreams are you should have a better grasp on how to understand and use your dreams.

Now, this was all i had read n understood about dreams... and now, let me narrate you an incident which turned me from Non-believer to Totally-Devoted.

It started with calls from every corner of India, north-south, east-west.. from people i know , claiming to have seen my death and instructing me to be more cautious than ever... for a second it did left me agape... i had just got up and it was the first thing i heard in morning.. however, i caught hold on myself, migrated my vagrant mind into rahul's room and there was he, telling his story to the guys.. the moment i entered, he saw me and said, 'yaar.. tu theek hai na?? kuch hua toh nahi..?? Tu believe nahi karega ki maine kya sapna dekha...'

I said, 'Ab tune kya dekh liya... !!', still pissed off with those astonishing calls..

rahul, 'Your death... it started like, u wake me up one night, ur face is half charred... Sukhii... mein bata nahi sakta, how horrible it was.. Trust me !!... and i wake up..'

me, 'Abe.. yeh ho kya raha hai.. why is everybody watchin my death !!'

and soon the longing comment from Anurag came, 'Sapne mien maut dekhne ka matlab hota hai ki Umar badh jana... m sure ur gonna live more..'

'LOL.. yeh kya hai !!.. really.. who cares, m already pissed off with this much life.. aur jeene ka matlab hai aur preshaan hona.. !! I wished ki cancer-vancer, aids-vaids ho jaaye.. taaki jaldi peecha chute...!!', I said while taking it all lightly now.

'chupkar.. fir aisa bola toh khidkii se neeche fekk dunga.. tujhe kya lagta hai, tere ko cancer ya aids hoga toh tere parents tujhe aise hi chodh denge marne ke liye.. aakhiri dum tak koshish karte rahenge woh.. kabhi socha hai ki aisa bolne se pahle, ki marne ke baad kitne log dukhi hone wale hai.. IDIOT !! ', rahul said, this came pretty bad to me... Ofcrse i know it.. i didnt actually mean my lines.. i was jus kidding.. lekin ab rahul ko kaun samjhaaye...

'aacha, sudeep aa rha hai aaj.. haina ??? shukaar hai.. ab project mein kuch progress hogi..', anurag said with some tension on his face...

'haan aa toh rha hai.. but..', me, with disgust visible on my foreline.

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'so ja.. so ja.. 5 baje hai abhi...', said my roommate as he switched up the lights.. came by the morning bus.

GOSH kya banda hai yaar yeh... this is was the thing in mind when he came.. anyway, i was too sleepy to say anything so i slept again..

'Ummmmmmmmm...ahhhhhhhh... time kya hua hai...', i said while stretched like a Dog.

'its 2pm... ONLY!! u again missed ur class... anyway, yeh dekh, what i brought from delhi.... tan taaana.. DREAMERS DICTIONARY... only rs. 50, bahut dhoondne ke baad milli', roommate said.

'no way.. cant be real.. sachi.. mann.. nice yarr..', i said, with almost as astonished as yesterday's calls.

'you said na that u can recall dreams but cannot make out what they mean.. this will help u a lot...', roommate...

to be honest, for the first time in 3 yrs i felt so good and thankful to him... anyway, without wasting any time i picked up the book and searched for the meaning of "DEATH", and to no surprise, it did mean Increment in age...

so.. what now, i started dreaming and kept checking the meanings...

for the past few days now, the dreams were vagrant but they're meaning was just close to saying.. you will have a good fortune, financial and reputation gains are expected...
Quite good it was to read them, but they were not strong enough for me to believe them...

then one day, we went for lunch.. and then i slept.. and when i woke up..its was 5pm... my head was really heavy with the drowsiness and longed for a cup of tea... i sprang up and sat in Yogi posture.. trying to recall what i had seen in my dreams..

this time i saw it... clearly..

i saw my ransacked room.. everything was lying here n there in total mess, point to note is that nothing was missing, it was just that everything was mispositioned... and then i open my Bed-box, in their, the Suitcases are missing, i see my quilt in it and on over that... my College Shirt, soiled up.. very very dirty shirt dating back to years.. !!!

this was the dream i could recall... and then in second attempt, i could manage to recall the other part, i.e.

Me, my brother and one of College friend, we are in Nirman Vihar Park (the one besides the Jain temple).. its full of water.. depth of water is almost around that of a swimming pool.. Dirty Brown water... and we are competing in it..

I immediately pulled up the Dreamer's Dictionary Book and looked for the meanings..

Dirty Clothes - Health needs attention... it is possible to fall Ill easily.

Swimming - To dream that you are swimming, suggests that you are exploring aspects of your unconscious mind and emotions. The dream may be a sign that you are seeking some sort of emotional support. It is a common dream image for people going through therapy.
To dream that you are swimming underwater, suggests that you are completely submerged in your own feelings. You are forcing yourself to deal with your emotional difficulties.

To my despair, i could not find any thing related to Ransacked room... tried looking the words Ransack, misplaced, mispositioned, comb... x-(
But, could not get hold on anything... However, i ignored the Health thing (thanks to the SECRET LAW), bcoz had i been thinking about it i would have attracted it and fell ill...

Well.. with these results, i cudn't be one in calm composure... but it was fine, after plenty of good results, i didnt mind having a few bad ones... Reminds me one of the sayings, Good Times are corollary to Bad Times... and vice-versa... Which can make it a big Vicious Circle.. However... its oKay.. ;)

so... a few days passed.. i kept myself busy with the GRE Prep i was doing.. 4th wordlist of the night, last word Rummage and it meant Ransacked room... And the first thing which came to mind was that dream... I came running to my room, picked up the book and looked for the meaning...

Rummage - small gains are expected.

This, brought me back to 7th sky... after a long day, a few emotional heart-attacks... and Tiring GRE Prep, this was the best i could hope for... and then a call from my sweetheart..

Next day came again, got up.. mussled my eyes.. and next thing... AAAAAAAANNNNCHUUUUU....Ummmmmm...AAAAAAAAANNNNCHUUUU....

'Hey bhagwaan.. yeh kya ho gya subah subah...'
Anyway, the whole day went like this only... went to Wakna that day, got my hair clipped... 7inches hair were cropped into 7cm hair !!!...
Everywhere i kept sneezing... that too without any reason... Kicked out of lecture for disturbing the class... fumbled into Dean while i sneezed.. Sneezed while i was trying to have a chuski of Tea (resulting into another nightmare)..

BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH... and only God knows why it was happening..

i couldn't even count how many times i had sneezed.. in the end, i fell ill.. cough, cold, fever... had my dinner, took medicine and before going to bed i said to myself "I will find an answer to Why i got ill, suddenly, out of nowhere...".

After this mind make up i slept and now what i saw was a Whitish Image.. and it had said "I had warned u..."..

i woke up.. recalled everything happened and i realized that it was the Straight Answer for what i said to myself before going to bed... "I will find an answer to Why i got ill, suddenly, out of nowhere"... and answer was.. "I had warned you..."

and now, i realized those Dirty Cloth thing... it meant Ill Health coming up... Freaky Isn't it...

But its true, here am I.. in little fever.. totally Bugged with the sickness.. and now, i really believe that, there is certainly something really big and unknown going around...

A magical power which is driving... like my friend said, This world is an illusion, and like this world there are plenty other worlds too... and when these worlds interfere with each other, you have an experience which is out of this world.

Anyway, i can't explain how these thing came to me... Every dream.. every meaning was fitting into life with such accuracy that i can't deny the fact that, YES this is really Amazing and there is really a world and one procedure which lies Unexplainable in front of me..

I hope, you'd be as amazed as i feel right now... and will strive to know your meanings... :))
So, All you have to do is to go this link and check your dream's meaning.. or post me your dream...

http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/

or you can buy this book, " The Dreamers Dictionary " by Lady Stearn Robinson and Tom Corbett. It is the one which i personally use to serve the purpose... a Tip: try to breakup the dreams you see in words and then try searching them, look for the feeling is more intense and the outcome in the Book... IT DOES WORK !!

chaao... :))

Sweat... !

2009-07-22T06:44:00.000-07:00

"How Reckless...", is the reaction when someone runs his first finger on his forehead followed by jerking his hand and SMACK goes the sweat droplets, rushing down like a crashed plane and BOOM hits the ground.

I have seen number of people wiping their head off, their face, having some handkerchief around neck... and this all just because of sweat.

Sweat - a very very important part of one's system, keeps the body cool, throws a lot of toxins out, etc etc....

Everyone knows how important sweating is... and the best part is, one sweats from almost everywhere... head, face, neck, chest, back, thighs, legs.... but ever cared to notice, does your ear sweat???

Number of times you must have noticed people working out and then sweating like HELL !!
but, How many times have you seen one's ear sweating.. how many times have you tried wiping your ear !!

Amusing isn't it... !!

in fact, when you workup your ears, like talking for hours on phone, headphones for long, etc etc.. they don't sweat.. in fact, They get red and hot.. amazing isn't it.... :)

to make this ultimate natural phenomenon "WORK UP UR EARS N GET THEM RED HOT" a parody, I'd fathom that may be your ears start working like a Heat Sink.. ;) they radiate the heat instead of cooling it off with the coolants like sweat.. ha ha ha ha..

but, sincerely... to give a thought, there are so many things which are so amusing about ones body... and we are so big idiots that we are caught up in some stupid relationship worries or any crap like that... C'mon yarr.. when you dun understand yourself completely (like, you dun have an answer to this Sweat thing) then how can you expect anyone else to understand you.. :)

oh shit sorry... my mind got swayed by the events encountered this evening.. anyway.. give a thought to this SWEAT thing... Google it or ponder over it.. whatever you do.. but do try to give an explanation to it...

and yea, to give a preview, next post wud be - relation of this SWEAT THING to the Society...

cheers.

Fathers Day...

2009-06-22T06:40:00.000-07:00

‘Haan haan... I will be there...’, i said to the girl on the line, ‘Haan Baba, Monday ka pakka hai... I will definitely see you there...’, i kept the phone grining over that finally i'm going to have the longing reunion.

Next was to decide what to do now, with my head up... i gazed the creaky ceiling fan who was supposed to answer for me... finally, i choose the comfort of doing nothing over pain of doing something, with legs outstreched reaching for the opposite corners of bed.. i sank to the posture for which my mother yells, ‘Yeh kya, Sava Ghayaarah (11:15) Bajja rakhe hai !!!, Can't you sit properly... go and sleep on bed.’

After dawdling a while, i found the most lucrative option for me... Facebook... Answer to man's boredom, "the fantastic Facebook"... I thanked the makers of facebook and logged in with the hope to find atleast some new posts to comment on or may be atleast someone to talk to...

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‘ Me: So, kal ke kya plans hai... m going to over to one of my friends, will u b joining ??
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Kahaan gyi !!!!
Sent at 12:05 am ’

Encountering "Sent at 12:05 am" left me agape for a moment and made me realize that all this time i was in solitude... left behind, this made me feel like an eager dog waiting for his master to serve him food while he waves his tail. And after a few minutes...

‘Ohh. ..vry sorry yar, had went to wish my Dad..’, rima replied

‘Oh nhi yaar.. haan no problem.. even i had to go out somwhere :).. so,its his bday today??’, i replied as if i didnt care but actually i was dying to get a break from this ice.

‘Na na, its Fathers Day yaar.... dont u knw !!’

‘Ummm.. well, actually.. no.. i didnt.. nt so gud with dates except the feb 14.. ;) ’

‘Haan y not, u doggie.. kabhi kuch aacha yaad mat rakhna.. dont u wish ur dad.. ?’

‘Nahi... its been really long.. like 12-13 yrs since last time i wished him..’

‘You can always start afresh... :)) ’

‘Sudden changes are not appreciable at my place.. :->’, i replied with mile long smile as if I am the biggest philosopher in the world!!

‘Toh tu nhi maanega...??? go n do wish your dad...’, rima wrote authoritatively…

‘Hmmmmmmmm.. okaay, chill yaar.. I would think about it... and its around 1 now, i'd be taking leave now, tc, chinni drmz.. :)’, i typed and logged out... realizing that there were four sms waiting to be replied, i started punching the keys while one after another replies came and an hour or so passed over the sms chats.

‘Life could be so good and so mean at times... Sometimes you get without any effort and sometimes you put in so hard, expect so much and the results are…’, i said to myself as I laid back, remembering the recent NASA failure i came across. While every part of my body was enjoying the benefits of AC, my head was still shackled by philosophies of life. Finally, convincing the other me by “What you think is what you get” I switched and came onto the hot chick I saw yesterday evening, right curves at right places and owner of immense beauty, she seemed to be interesting but more of a siren to me, so I finally choose to just sleep and nothing else.

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‘I wont get up!! mere ko nahi uthana.. its 6:30 in the morning.. nahi karni maine kisi ki help.. sone dooooooo !!!’, I said with a loud and shaky voice still in half sleep while my mother tried to wake me up for some work. At last, the voice of mother-ism or should I say taunts took over the laziness and I got up... As i passed through the lobby with shutters down n locked, adjusting the silver shorts I had bought recently and bumping into almost everything which came in way, i managed my way to Drawing room where i recklessly fell on sofa and slept again.

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‘Yeh ladka koi kaam nahi karta, pata nahi kaise se hai yeh bache, ya toh Laptop ya fir bed... koi dusri chiiz dikhaai hi nahi deti…’, I heard my mother saying to mama while she made tea.

It was around noon,‘Uth gya sher... chal kuch khaa pii le phir shaam ka intezaam karne chalte hai…’, mama said to me while i was busy waving my arm as if i am trying to churn up the air and find some comfort in middle of the day.

‘Get up… get some milk’, mother said... ‘Amul ka hi lana… 2 liters’.
I went out, bought the milk and on my way back I was wondering on does these quizzes on Facebook give sincere results... Am I really 91% mature or is it just some coincidence; also I was happy on how smartly I gave theories on that post and made my point. It was just in middle of thinking that may be I am really very smart and bike skid, and it was not long when I realized that I am all on the road with bike eating dust on the pavements.

I caught hold on my senses, got up and released gears… pulled the bike over with full strength only to find that my limbs have still not recovered and again it fell on the other side. It could be one of the most embarrassing moments, a person could face… first you meet an accident on the road, then when you try to pretend that you are in shipshape and something so unwanted happens which leaves you as a pitiful object ! However, with some help I got back on bike, checked the bike for any broken parts, which totaled to zero luckily. Next thing on mind was that no one should get to know that something happened, so I came and directly went to my room, took the deodorant and applied on the wounds, it wasn’t easy to go through this but was necessary. And, this is how my evening went.

Then for dinner we had Chicken, Kebabs and palatable Chicken Wings. While we watched the T20 finals, Pakistan vs. Sri Lanka, I exclaimed, ‘Yeh match kuch fixed sa nahi lagta Mamaji, see there not even a single line of worry on Pakistani player’s simian Face.’

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‘Dhuppp.. !!’, AC made a noise which woke me up realizing that there’s a damn power cut. Unwillingly I got up from the bed and switched on the inverter, I glanced outside street lights were on; irritating sound of my neighbors AC was still piercing my ears. ‘Lagta hai sirf apni light gayi hai...’, dad said while I still tried to figure It out who’s the figure standing in front of me.

It was 1:20 am on the clock and wind outside was still slow and hot, plenty of thoughts came running into my mind, what happens if light doesn’t come for whole night, what should be the strategy now, what should be done, what could be the reason, is this god’s punishment for I kept the tag “ Best Curses for 2009 -- "Bhagwaan kare bhari dhuphaari mien tumhaare ghar ki light chali jaye..", "May god shower all his blessings in form of rain on u and ur family.. And may ur home rot with seepage in walls..." and "Bhagwaan kare tumhaare ghar ki Maid bhaag jaaye...”....... Mind it, look at the irony of it!! ”

Dad called the BSES Office and soon the electricians arrived, after an hour long brainstorming session, electricians paraphrased that this is a pellucid case of wire breakage. Soon they fixed it and everything seemed to get in place for me. Dad and I came back to room, switched the AC and laid back.
And, realizing that it was fathers day and I forgot to wish him I said ‘Paa… happy father’s day’.

This is how the Fathers Day (Sunday) came to me…

Quotes

2008-07-27T03:19:00.000-07:00

Hello reader,
Its been long since my last post, thanks to the hectic schedule i have.. imagine, 35hrs of classes out of 40 academic hours in a week... After such a long tiring day, i can't see anything else than maah Bed...
Anyways, i couldn't come up with something interesting yet am uploading a few quotes. They are really fantastic and u may find it very applicable in your own life.

Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy.
The difference between the impossible and possible lies in person's determination.
No passion so effectually robs the mind of all its powers of acting and reasoning as fear.
The ONLY CORRECT Actions are those that demand no explanation and no apology.
No man is ever old enough to know better.
Welcome anything that comes to you, but do not long for anything else.
People seem not to realize that their opinion of the world is also a confession of their own character.
We always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.

These were a few fantastic quotes in saw in TOI... many thanks to TOI who regularly publish such nice matter in Sunday Times.

I would be back soon on Blog.
Chao

Was Newton Correct with his 3rd Law ??

2008-07-16T11:56:00.000-07:00

Newtons 3rd Law " Every Action has equal and opposite Reaction."

Hello reader,
Am sure that you must have definitely read it in your lower classes that Newton "The Great Scientist" gave 3 Laws. Usually these law are applied to Motion, but they completely fail as they are not in terms of Energy Transfers.

Believe me if you combine it with the Law of Conservation "Energy can neither be created nor destroyed, can be only transformed from one form to another." , then it becomes applicable to almost Everything.

The point to write this article is to simply say that Newton was really wrong to write the statement for 3rd Law. I know i don't stand anywhere against such a great Thinker and Philosopher, but do consider my Theory and post Comments.

According to me, it should have been "Every positive energy has a negative energy equivalent which is of the same magnitude as of the former, where the positive and negative convention is based on frame of reference"...

What ?? You can't see any difference between two ??

Okay... Lets take an example, suppose, You are waving your hand,
Action here is -- air is displaced with the force exerted while you move your hand across the stable air.
And according to Newton's Statement, Reaction should be -- your hand should get displaced due to force exerted by air on your hand.

so ?? Do you really find any equivalence in action and reaction ??...Answer is definitely "NO".

But if you consider my statement, according to it,
Positive Energy would be -- the Biological-Energy (energy used in Muscles can't be expressed in Joules, one of my believes) consumed to move the hand is the total energy used for the action.
And, the Negative Energy would be --

The energy dissipated in Lactic Acid production, also called Tiring Effect, it is responsible for making your brain feel tired so as to activate the muscle cell regeneration.
The heat energy generated due to collision of your skin with the stationery particles of air.
The momentum generated in the air particles which were earlier in rest state but now in random motion state.

New statement satisfies the problem even if we reverse the condition, the only change in equations would be there convention which is completely based on frame of reference.

This New Statement is very much applicable to every situation. Do let me know your views.
I would soon upload my experiences on, Black Magic and Transforming States of Matter.

Thanks

First Blog...

2008-07-15T11:35:00.000-07:00

Hello reader,
If you are reading this, then of course you know me... if not, then to start, I am Nikhil Pandey... did my high school 2yrs ago and doing my major in EC-Engineering.

The idea of blogging came to me when i saw plenty of chaps making out their pocket-money out of it, well earning was the dominating reason to start... layman would call me Money-minded, but i would rather term it as Profit-Minded ;)

My close friends always told me that i got good skills in relieving tensions and manipulating lives with some of my very philosophical lectures, but i really don't know much about it. Before starting this blog, I didn't had any lead in what am i actually gonna upload, would anyone really care to check or would i have to grab everyone from collar and say "visit my blog and make sure that you click the ads." :D

Well, my only experience (in my whole vacations) on "How your body state can kick your mind" or simply, the state -- High... happened to me almost this evening.
COnfused ??
hmmm.. lemme tell you my current state, i have my food in front of me followed by my pills waiting across the table... and me, with 103 fever on my head & with my night lamp on, i get a click on, how should i start with my first blog...

"Being Dynamic..." is the most suitable and stable statement with which i can define myself. :)

Do remember,first step is the hardest and yet easiest of every long journey...
and, you have already taken it... so just take a backseat, close your eyes and enjoy the ride as i give you The NewVision...

I hope that i get your company throughout my blogging experience.

Thanks